I have learnt so much over the last two years about myself, humanity, and my relationships. It is a never-ending process, one that I am entirely grateful for and committed to. I have at times experienced many moments of revelation, understanding, knowledge, immense beauty and love, coupled with dips and challenges along the way.
Recently I have learned a new lesson that I felt to share. Now you may already know all of what I have to convey, but for me it was a poignant revelation. When it unravels in front of you and actually demonstrates that the philosophy Serge Benhayon teaches is absolutely true, it is a wonderful confirmation – simply magic.
Lately I have heard about some awful things happening in the world. We all know that there are terrible things occurring – people, children and animals getting hurt – but one news story really grabbed me. It felt so awful that I went into several reactions: shock, horror, disbelief, hurt, empathy, helplessness, anger and then followed this urge and desire to want to protect, change the system, raise awareness, make something happen, change the world and make it all stop.
I went into action and began to raise awareness, I signed a whole lot of petitions and researched support and activist groups. It seemed to overtake me for days; it was never far from my thoughts. My sleep quality and rhythms were affected, I didn’t feel myself and I was aware that my usual sparkle and zest were being dampened down. I realised that going into drive for this cause was not good for me, it was affecting my connection to myself and others. I knew that I was of much less use to this world in this dimmer, sleep deprived, concerned, anxious and hurt condition.
One night I prayed for an answer, what can I do? How can I make a difference in the world? I knew that the way I was going about it was not it.
Over the next couple of days this was demonstrated to me very clearly. On one of the activist websites they had displayed a video that was being cheered and celebrated by its members and followers. The video showed a woman rescuing a small puppy from a man who was harming it. The next scene shows the woman holding the puppy in one arm and hitting the man in the face with the other. Very uncomfortable to watch. I wrote a comment after the video – I don’t know if they will publish it but I really felt to say that “aggression and violence cannot be overcome with aggression and violence, it is simply not going to work. It only perpetuates and deepens the harm… it doesn’t help, it makes it worse. It is the same energy. No violence against any animal or human being should be celebrated – whatever they have done.”
It is the same energy. This really resonated with me. It was very clear.
Further confirmation soon followed. A post that I had put on Facebook in order to ‘raise awareness and help’ had been shared to other people’s Facebook pages. There followed a string of comments that were angry and venomous, causing more harm. Unwittingly I had stirred up hate and anger! What?! How did that happen?!
I realised so clearly it happened because, as Serge Benhayon so tirelessly presents, “Everything is energy, and therefore, everything is because of energy” (Serge Benhayon, 1999)
This is where beauty and magic happens; this is where you can make all the difference in the world. Not just in your family and friends and close circle but on the other side of the world! Wow!
I can sign a million petitions, stand with a banner and yell at the top of my lungs but in what energy would I do that? Desperation? Hurt? Injustice? Anger? Fear? I would only make everything so much worse.
Coming back to a Chris James song that I love so much and which is oh so very true. “All I have to do is just be me.”
How beautiful is that? My body confirmed it as it felt so right to return to myself, knowing that being me and the love that I am – and not holding any of that back – really is going to change the world.
And further still… today as I look again at my ‘UniMedLiving’ calendar for March 2017, the message that I have read before, several times but now I feel the absolute truth in: “We ought to consider that whatever we do has a bearing on the all that is the all we exist in.” (Serge Benhayon, Time, Space and all of us, Book 2 – Space, p. 140)
By Jacqueline Raven, aged 45, professional singer, specialising in singing for and with the elderly in day care and residential homes, holds sound groups in Suffolk based on the work of Chris James. Lives in Brandon, Suffolk, UK.