This Beauty

Bombs in stadiums, houses reduced to rubble, children with limbs blown off, whole nations displaced, toxic chemicals in our water stream, politicians who plot to skim off all the cream, brutal bashing of our closest partners, drug addiction through the roof, sex trafficking and child abuse. One look at the world today and it is clear things aren’t going so well.

This beauty.

Whilst we might live in peaceful suburbia with our widescreen TVs, pretty gardens and nice neighbours, if we are honest there’s a knowing underneath that somewhere else there’s great pain and distress for other people who are our brothers. Yet this chaos has gone on for so long… all of history it seems. What possibility is there to end it?

This beauty. 

No charity, movement or leader has ever been able to change this warring world and those that tried have typically been hung, drawn and quartered.

So we proceed to ‘make the best of it,’ to keep a stiff upper lip and look after our own patch of dirt, as long as we have our entertainment, sport and technology. All the time – chaos reigns.

So where on earth to from here?

This beauty. 

Yesterday I met my son. I’ve seen him on video screen two times before but back then he was pretty much a big-headed blur.

But yesterday, as my wife lay down and the scan was done of her body, my son’s 21 week old physique appeared up on the monitor. I heard his heart beat rapidly and saw his perfectly formed arms and hands move about. He wriggled as if to say, “Look, can you keep this photo shoot quick?” and “I’m not a fan of paparazzi.” But as the nurse moved the scanner around, I felt myself welling up, so deeply touched inside.

This beauty. 

Like a picture of the universe miniaturised into a human form, this young but ancient being looked back at me from the TV screen and said, “Hey Dad!” As I marvelled at his gorgeousness, I began to cry. I worried for a moment about what the nurses might think of my seeming weakness, but I couldn’t contain the tears inside. It was beautiful and such a relief to let them out. And then it dawned on me.

This beauty.

Since finding out I was going to be a dad four months ago, I’ve found myself getting easily upset, feeling distant, hard and overwhelmed. During what seemed like it should be a time of joy, I was struggling on. As my wife was sick, I dedicated space to focussing on her, on organising everything she needed and keeping the house in order. And yet I seemed to be in a permanently bad mood.

I talked to friends occasionally and got some support of sorts – and was encouraged to consider my secret fears about this great new responsibility. Yet this distance in me remained. What was going on?

This beauty.

Things started to occur: our internet connection went down, the central heating failed, and my car was crashed into – as if something or someone was trying to get a message to me. But I didn’t have a clue.

I met with a friend, Michael Benhayon, and he suggested there was something I hadn’t let myself feel. But what terrible thing could this be I wondered?

This beauty.

As I sat crying in the scan room it came to me. I had been holding back from feeling the absolute beauty of my son, being pregnant and us all being one. As this sank in, I cried with my wife in the waiting room – just standing there with my heart.

As I did, it became clear to me that there’s no strategy or political program that is needed to fix this world, no ban on armaments or world summit to solve drug abuse. All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.

This beauty.

It’s not a physical or intellectual thing or what clothes you wear, but a quality you can feel – a grandness that connects us to the universe. It’s the ‘wow’ you get when looking at the sweetest flower, a vast landscape or array of stars – something you feel in your heart. It’s like a magnetic pull for me.

I’m starting to see we feel it all the time, but do not let it be at all. We wait till those close to us are nearly dead to reveal how much they have meant to us; we dismiss the subtlety of our sensitivity and think we need to toughen up. We hold back the pure poetry of our sweet dear heart in case its preciousness is not welcome in this world. But in doing this we perpetuate the very hurts and hardness that we hate.

Even as I write this here, I can feel myself battening my feeling down in case it gets out of hand – how ingrained we are!

For too long we have subscribed to a view of ourselves as wicked, flawed and vicious beings. There is something in us that wallows in this. But it’s all just a game to let evil reign. This is the biggest case of mistaken identity known to man, like a delicate bird that is trying to be a bull. It’s quite absurd.

This beauty.

Is it possible that terror need not exist if we just cease and desist from holding back our heart?

Yes, this world is full of examples of horrors that we create and it’s revolting to feel how far from that beauty we live. But the way forward is to reconnect to our true nature, not to bludgeon it.

As I lay with my wife in bed last night and I placed my hand on her belly, it felt like I could hear my son speak. He let me know that the beauty that I felt with him is there in everything, in me too, and all I need to do is live knowing this is true.

Yes, we have frail imperfect bodies but our beings are so much more than that. I figured he should know as he has come back to do it all again in another lifetime. I went to sleep holding him, holding me, appreciating what he is teaching me.

This beauty.

I know that the way I’ve written here is normal and equally felt by people all around the world. Imagine if all 7 billion of us started to share the beauty that is within us all. There surely would be no room for petty arguments and squabbles. Just because we have ignored our divinity for aeons past doesn’t make the mundanity true – who we are. Our hearts are full of so much love. Holding it back is poisonous.

We are this beauty – can we handle that?

Published with permission of my wife.

By Joseph Barker, Beautiful man, Designer, Drawer and soon to be parent, Melbourne, Australia

Inspired by ‘I am Beautiful’ by Bianca Barban (1), Michael Benhayon and the teachings and presentations of Serge Benhayon and Natalie Benhayon.

References:

1. https://womeninlivingness.wordpress.com/2013/02/01/i-am-beautiful/

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455 thoughts on “This Beauty

  1. We discount that people on the other side of the world are our brothers because they are not of the same flesh. Our ability to put borders between us and our neighbours builds walls between people who’ve never met, it creates stigmas and judgements about those we have never interacted with. We are doing ourselves such a disfavour in this behaviour and we don’t even let ourselves be aware of it.

  2. Ooh my, so gorgeous to read this today and be reminded that the chaos we see and feel in the world is not who we are and attempting to fix it is not what’s needed; instead we learn to live and be with the beauty we are, for that’s the rub, our chaos exists because we have an issue with and deny our beauty, so our job is to live and express the beauty we are.

  3. I too have noticed at times when I have embarked on deepening in an area, for a period I am even more sensitive to everything that was contrary to the qualities I am deepening in. e.g. I may be deepening my openness to people, but because I am also deepening my awareness and alignment to being open with people, every pocket of protection and hardness which I might have easily ignores up to now, starts to stick out and feel awful. Sometimes I forget this and rush to assume that I am going backwards.

    1. True words Paula, to not dismiss our beauty and divinity is what we can choose. Nothing we do or say is more important than choosing that.

  4. “It’s not a physical or intellectual thing or what clothes you wear, but a quality you can feel – a grandness that connects us to the universe. It’s the ‘wow’ you get when looking at the sweetest flower, a vast landscape or array of stars – something you feel in your heart.” And the Universe is constantly providing reflections to support us go there. All we need do is not fight it.

    1. We are the grandness of the Universe and our purpose once back to the full knowing that we are, is to continually keep expanding the Universe to more and more grander versions of itself. How utterly sublime is that? How could we have ever walked away from that? But we did and now look at the mess we’re in.

  5. Focussing on the beauty and living with love and appreciation feels like a very joyful way to be and allows there to be more love in the world. I have noticed how children are naturally so full of love and joy no matter what is going on in the world, they are a great inspiration for us all.

  6. It is so true Joseph, we have felt the love of who we truly are and also the harshness of not living and appreciating that beauty.

  7. It makes so much sense, that if we continuously fight the ‘beauty’ that we naturally are, the fight within us will eventually become the fight around us and if not brought to a halt, this fight will naturally flow out into the world. So, with the majority of the world fighting who they innately are, who they are born to be, it makes so much sense of a world that is in fight mode, a world that on the surface appears to be in chaos instead of the inherent harmony and beauty it holds within, just like us.

  8. ‘Yet this chaos has gone on for so long… all of history it seems. What possibility is there to end it?’ such a trick to keep us resigned to a fate of this being our nature when it is what we have become, not come from, which is our true nature of being love.

  9. No need to critique but appreciate the beauty that is there, then step by step all the ugliness will fade as we are giving it less and less of our time and energy.

  10. Joseph, thank you for reminding us of this; ‘Our hearts are full of so much love.’ Reading this I can feel that we can get so focussed on the negative so caught up in issues and in this we miss the simple love that we and others truly are.

  11. We don’t need to change the whole world just ourselves and this then offers more and more people the same opportunity and there can be a ripple effect which spreads throughout humanity.

    1. Yes, and all we have to do is accept the beauty and love that is within us and allow ourselves to live it. Living in a way we want the world to truly be.

    2. And that’s the magic Michael – ‘we don’t need to change the whole world’. We will stop being overwhelmed by the bigger picture when we bring our focus back to us, and begin to make changes in our life, one loving step at a time and as we do those loving ripples of change cannot but begin to flow out into the world, dissolving the chaos as they flow; love does heal everything.

  12. I have myself been caught up feeling so much frustration, and as much as there is so much in the world that is ‘uspide down’ and inside out’, I have also forgotten to let myself feel and see the beauty around me – in the simple smile of my 12 year old son, the playfulness of my dog, the gentle gaze of my husband, and so much more. And so it is that I am working on appreciation of myself and all around me…this is bringing back the beauty, re-igniting the purpose and meaning in life.

  13. The world truly is a mess, but this is a key part that we all play in adressing the issue – letting ourselves feel the beauty. Thank you Joseph! – “As I did, it became clear to me that there’s no strategy or political program that is needed to fix this world, no ban on armaments or world summit to solve drug abuse. All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.”

    1. Powerful words Andrew – they show how it is all about energy – what do we choose in life, the beauty as shared by Joseph OR the denial of this beauty which must mean something else takes its place?

  14. The waves of love I feel pulsing through my body as I read this Testimony and how these waves grow and expand as I let myself claim the truth of what has been written here is all the evidence I need to know this is true – it is true of us all. Thank you Joseph.

  15. “…..the way forward is to reconnect to our true nature, not to bludgeon it.” Absolutely agree with you here Joseph. And it is only by reconnecting to the truth of who we are, who we knew we were when we were little children, that we can begin to reclaim this True Beauty that is unquestionably innate in all of us.

  16. This is such a testimony and inspiration to let out the beauty we feel in moments where we think it’s not ok to express them. I am allowing myself to see and feel the beauty in life, to not cut myself off in case I feel all the times I’ve been mean to myself especially, and jealous of others because their choices have been far more embracing of the beauty that surrounds us. When I don’t run away from beauty I feel the fragility of life in all its strength.

  17. The lists of atrocities in the opening paragraph is quite shocking, particularly when we consider that we are supposed to be the most advanced species on this planet. Clearly when we disconnect from this Beauty, humanity heads off down some very extreme routes, which makes me wonder if we are not holding true to our innately beautiful wisdom, does something else slip into the void that then drives this atrocious behaviour?

  18. There is certainly a contrast to feel between the world as it is all around us and the beauty we know we are within, Joseph. Appreciating this beauty and making it grow is our way forwards.

  19. What a beautiful awakening you experienced Joseph, we fight the war within ourselves until we allow a moment of surrender, to feel the grandness and oneness and love that we have been missing.

  20. ‘Yet this chaos has gone on for so long… all of history it seems. What possibility is there to end it?’ Like you say so beautifully here, in not denying our innate beauty anymore.

  21. This beautiful blog is written by a man who knows this beauty is within him too. Such a gorgeous blog Joseph, I love re-reading it again and again.

  22. This beauty that is inside each and everyone of us, even those whose behaviour causes huge harm to others, is what we need to connect to and harness, for this is what will take us back to our truth.

  23. Parenting101, first connect, feel the equal-ness and understand how divine we all are and that no one can take away the brotherhood we all share when we choose Love and our global family.

  24. ‘All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.’ it is in holding back all that we are which allows an expression of what we are not to be prevalent and be erroneously believed to be our nature.

    1. Steve we have, we have made the huge mistake of believing that we are only human and no more, but we are vastly more than this only living a dumbed down fraction of our true potential, and yes we have convinced ourselves that this is as good as it gets, but this is simply a lie we have accepted.

  25. If we do not allow ourselves all that there is to see and feel we will always just have a snapshot of what is really going on.

  26. ‘Things started to occur: our internet connection went down, the central heating failed, and my car was crashed into – as if something or someone was trying to get a message to me. But I didn’t have a clue.’ This got me to pondering how often do things happen that we think are isolated incidents or we think are practical things unrelated to how we are in life. I do notice when things happen and I can’t put them altogether. Rather than trying to work things out I can feel what’s there to let go of it.

  27. Children have so much wisdom to offer the world if only we treat them as equally wise. They dont have the filters that we as adults have taken on and so the truth they present is very timely, honest and real.

    1. Absolutely Vicky, and when we all connect to our beauty and live from there, I am sure the greed, corruption, abuse etc. would not stand a chance.

  28. “So we proceed to ‘make the best of it,’ to keep a stiff upper lip and look after our own patch of dirt …” And what a lot of pain and harm that ‘stiff upper lip’ attitude is responsible for, as we learn to batten down what we feel inside and turn a blind eye to the inhumane behaviour that plays out around us as a consequence.

  29. ‘I had been holding back from feeling the absolute beauty of my son, being pregnant and us all being one. As this sank in, I cried with my wife in the waiting room – just standing there with my heart.’ – how very blessed we are to have you in our world Joseph. I so love the absolute beauty of everything you are sharing here and how very important it is for us to feel able to share the truth of what we feel within – always.

  30. It is the opposite of what we imagine is the way to solve the current disharmony and conflict. The strategies and protections are not working and yet our innermost hearts are always there to be confirmed and deepened.

    1. We are the creators of our own disharmony and toxicity in which we are all trying to live, when we are able to accept this fact as truth, the tide can change and harmony be restored.

    2. I agree, we can come up with many more solutions but if we do not let our hearts guide the way nothing will truly change.

    1. Yes we do – it becomes so much more normal. Today in a shopping centre I passed a number of young children in a row. I melted with every one of them as I connected to their utter yumminess. When we make appreciation our normal life is so much richer, naturally so.

    2. Yes, and it is a beautiful way to live by. To see the beauty in another and around and not get stuck on the imperfections.

  31. ‘All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.’ If we really appreciated the truth of this we would surely have to see how beautiful we are. Anything that takes us from this beauty has to be so vile – be it dramatic and obvious or the sickly good that people try to be – because otherwise we couldn’t deny we are this beautiful.

  32. So often when we focus on the bad we look to ‘good’ and ‘kind’ acts as the way to solve our issues. Rarely are we encouraged to go deeper and connect with our real Beauty, but when we do it introduces a new dimension that restores honesty, truth and much needed wisdom to our world that empowers us to find resolutions to the ills born from our beauty-less choices.

  33. Holding back from living all the love that our heart is, causes more and more self protective barriers to be erected, erroneously thinking that this will keep us safe. Unfortunately barriers only create more poisonous energy of anxst, supremacy and wars to continue. “Our hearts are full of so much love. Holding it back is poisonous”

      1. Amen to that Alexis. It’s so true that “One look at the world today and it is clear things aren’t going so well”, so letting the flood gates open is a great move – bring on the love.

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