This Beauty

Bombs in stadiums, houses reduced to rubble, children with limbs blown off, whole nations displaced, toxic chemicals in our water stream, politicians who plot to skim off all the cream, brutal bashing of our closest partners, drug addiction through the roof, sex trafficking and child abuse. One look at the world today and it is clear things aren’t going so well.

This beauty.

Whilst we might live in peaceful suburbia with our widescreen TVs, pretty gardens and nice neighbours, if we are honest there’s a knowing underneath that somewhere else there’s great pain and distress for other people who are our brothers. Yet this chaos has gone on for so long… all of history it seems. What possibility is there to end it?

This beauty. 

No charity, movement or leader has ever been able to change this warring world and those that tried have typically been hung, drawn and quartered.

So we proceed to ‘make the best of it,’ to keep a stiff upper lip and look after our own patch of dirt, as long as we have our entertainment, sport and technology. All the time – chaos reigns.

So where on earth to from here?

This beauty. 

Yesterday I met my son. I’ve seen him on video screen two times before but back then he was pretty much a big-headed blur.

But yesterday, as my wife lay down and the scan was done of her body, my son’s 21 week old physique appeared up on the monitor. I heard his heart beat rapidly and saw his perfectly formed arms and hands move about. He wriggled as if to say, “Look, can you keep this photo shoot quick?” and “I’m not a fan of paparazzi.” But as the nurse moved the scanner around, I felt myself welling up, so deeply touched inside.

This beauty. 

Like a picture of the universe miniaturised into a human form, this young but ancient being looked back at me from the TV screen and said, “Hey Dad!” As I marvelled at his gorgeousness, I began to cry. I worried for a moment about what the nurses might think of my seeming weakness, but I couldn’t contain the tears inside. It was beautiful and such a relief to let them out. And then it dawned on me.

This beauty.

Since finding out I was going to be a dad four months ago, I’ve found myself getting easily upset, feeling distant, hard and overwhelmed. During what seemed like it should be a time of joy, I was struggling on. As my wife was sick, I dedicated space to focussing on her, on organising everything she needed and keeping the house in order. And yet I seemed to be in a permanently bad mood.

I talked to friends occasionally and got some support of sorts – and was encouraged to consider my secret fears about this great new responsibility. Yet this distance in me remained. What was going on?

This beauty.

Things started to occur: our internet connection went down, the central heating failed, and my car was crashed into – as if something or someone was trying to get a message to me. But I didn’t have a clue.

I met with a friend, Michael Benhayon, and he suggested there was something I hadn’t let myself feel. But what terrible thing could this be I wondered?

This beauty.

As I sat crying in the scan room it came to me. I had been holding back from feeling the absolute beauty of my son, being pregnant and us all being one. As this sank in, I cried with my wife in the waiting room – just standing there with my heart.

As I did, it became clear to me that there’s no strategy or political program that is needed to fix this world, no ban on armaments or world summit to solve drug abuse. All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.

This beauty.

It’s not a physical or intellectual thing or what clothes you wear, but a quality you can feel – a grandness that connects us to the universe. It’s the ‘wow’ you get when looking at the sweetest flower, a vast landscape or array of stars – something you feel in your heart. It’s like a magnetic pull for me.

I’m starting to see we feel it all the time, but do not let it be at all. We wait till those close to us are nearly dead to reveal how much they have meant to us; we dismiss the subtlety of our sensitivity and think we need to toughen up. We hold back the pure poetry of our sweet dear heart in case its preciousness is not welcome in this world. But in doing this we perpetuate the very hurts and hardness that we hate.

Even as I write this here, I can feel myself battening my feeling down in case it gets out of hand – how ingrained we are!

For too long we have subscribed to a view of ourselves as wicked, flawed and vicious beings. There is something in us that wallows in this. But it’s all just a game to let evil reign. This is the biggest case of mistaken identity known to man, like a delicate bird that is trying to be a bull. It’s quite absurd.

This beauty.

Is it possible that terror need not exist if we just cease and desist from holding back our heart?

Yes, this world is full of examples of horrors that we create and it’s revolting to feel how far from that beauty we live. But the way forward is to reconnect to our true nature, not to bludgeon it.

As I lay with my wife in bed last night and I placed my hand on her belly, it felt like I could hear my son speak. He let me know that the beauty that I felt with him is there in everything, in me too, and all I need to do is live knowing this is true.

Yes, we have frail imperfect bodies but our beings are so much more than that. I figured he should know as he has come back to do it all again in another lifetime. I went to sleep holding him, holding me, appreciating what he is teaching me.

This beauty.

I know that the way I’ve written here is normal and equally felt by people all around the world. Imagine if all 7 billion of us started to share the beauty that is within us all. There surely would be no room for petty arguments and squabbles. Just because we have ignored our divinity for aeons past doesn’t make the mundanity true – who we are. Our hearts are full of so much love. Holding it back is poisonous.

We are this beauty – can we handle that?

Published with permission of my wife.

By Joseph Barker, Beautiful man, Designer, Drawer and soon to be parent, Melbourne, Australia

Inspired by ‘I am Beautiful’ by Bianca Barban (1), Michael Benhayon and the teachings and presentations of Serge Benhayon and Natalie Benhayon.

References:

1. https://womeninlivingness.wordpress.com/2013/02/01/i-am-beautiful/

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I am beauty-full just for being me – a message from the author
Opening my heart to love again
Building love in our life

466 thoughts on “This Beauty

  1. I have felt recently just how easy it is for us to cover up the beauty that we all innately are. I have felt bad about the way that I have behaved on a couple of occasions, not only do I feel bad about the way that I have behaved but I also started to feel self doubt as well as a liberal sprinkling of comparison. There’s no point cognitively ‘knowing’ that we are the beauty of God if we can’t feel it because feeling the fact that we are the beauty of God is the only way that we can ever truly know it.

  2. “Our hearts are full of so much love. Holding it back is poisonous.” and hence why we find so much illness and disease in our world.

  3. We have so normalised living in disconnection that we are not awake to the enormity of the beauty that is there to claim. I remember being so touched at the sight of my own baby in a scan that suddenly in that moment of sighting, everything aligned. I melted and cried too. There is nothing more touching than being reminded of what we actually belong to.

  4. Appreciation of the beauty within of what can came through us, along with the intimacy that comes with an open appreciative-ness and thus we are letting people in so we then also share this with everyone, and this is a simple thing that should be taught at schools.

  5. It is crazy how desensitised we have become – with the amount of information constantly being fed to us, all of these things have become our normal. We’ve learned to accept it as the way it is and are just focusing on living our better lives – more money, better material things & holidays further away from where we live. In all of our connection with the globe we are ensuing disconnection – we are all saying it but how many of us have truly felt the ramifications of our movements away from one another?

  6. Thank you Joseph, there is something so moving about what is written here, it’s a universal truth expressed, the voice of the heart, and deeply touching. I found myself having a cry tonight from what you have written, I know in my heart the truth of the beauty we are and can live together, and the pain of seeing it and experiencing it as it currently is.

  7. This is such a beautiful article Joseph. “I had been holding back from feeling the absolute beauty of my son, being pregnant and us all being one. As this sank in, I cried with my wife in the waiting room – just standing there with my heart.”. Its so true – we don’t allow ourselves to feel the beauty that does exist all around us and in our hearts.

  8. If all the wars and abuse that occur in the world are a result of resisting the grand love that we are and all the unloving behaviours that occur on a day to day, moment to moment basis, then how grand is this love that we are on the inside that it requires such a counter method?

  9. Your love, preciousness, sensitivity, adoration of your wife and son and complete openness can palpably be felt. Such a beautifull read and as reading I reflected on how at night I have started to move my shoulders in a certain way before going to bed, what I am noticing in this movement is this absolute delicateness and sensitivity within that I am ignoring or not allowing to shine out throughout my day, it feels similar to the feeling you felt when you met your son for the first time, that is …. the magic of us all ✨

  10. Feeling the wonder and beauty of an unborn or new born child is to realise that we are all of this same beauty.

    1. Yes, and so many of us let it go as we grow up in society today. Re-reading this post brings me back to appreciation of all the beauty that exists in us all.

  11. We have created our own reality which is far removed from our true nature and essence. We fight our divinity and our ways are becoming more animalistic day by day as we drop our standards of living. I saw a teenager recently surrounded by police and some of his male friends he was so out of it just like a Zombie either by taking drugs or alcohol and I wondered to myself why? The why came to me a little later is it possible that this teenager cannot cope with the intensity of his sensitivity and feelings and so bludgeons them to bits in an effort not to feel life what is really going on in it. Is it possible that he is trying to run away from his sensitivity it’s almost as though we are terrified of actually allowing our sensitivity and fragility to be seen as society has deemed this as ‘sissy’ especially in a boy. What is it that current societal values do not allow men to express themselves in their true beauty?

  12. So gorgeous to re-read your exquisite blog again today Joseph. These words resonated – ” All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.” Yes – This beauty.

  13. Just loved re-reading your post Joseph. “This beauty.- It’s not a physical or intellectual thing or what clothes you wear, but a quality you can feel – a grandness that connects us to the universe. ” Beauty isn’t a visual thing but a quality that emanates out from someone or something – gorgeous to feel.

  14. “All of it, every last bit is not coming from horrible human beings but from us fighting and denying our beauty.”
    -This powerdul claim makes a lot of sense to me because how could someone who has fully embraced and accepted their divine origin and beauty which is equal to God possibly hurt another person or cause any suffering to those in their lives? Also, if all men would allow themselves to express as tenderly and with such sensitivity as Joseph has in this blog, there would certainly be so much more harmony and true brotherhood and compassion in the world.

  15. It seems that we are very observant and reactive when we see the atrocities that go on in the world but we overlook the beauty. Maybe if we just changed our focus a little and appreciate more, life would start to take on a new meaning and then we change from the inside out.

  16. I distinctly remember when both my children were born and I first held them in my arms shorlty after. There was simply no doubt in my mind that as human beings we are all highly sensitive, delicate, precious, powerful beings that are super grand and universal and definitely not just physical instinctive animals. You simply cannot come to any other conclusion if you really stop and allow yourself to fully feel what a baby feels like.

    1. So agree – I too remember holding my children when they were babies and knew they had been here before and was blown away by their preciousness and exquisiteness. I get that privilege every week now when I go into my local hospital to support new parents with feeding – such a privilege – feeling the beauty of the newborns.

  17. It doesn’t matter if we are untouched in our daily lives by the horrors that go on elsewhere, we know there are vile acts being committed. Trying to ignore this only adds to the pool of energy that feeds these despicable acts. It’s very sobering but what is also true is the absolute beauty of who we are that we can embrace without worrying about how we’ve perhaps not lived it for a while. It’s the return that counts.

    1. Yes and appreciate and confirm our own beauty. How many of us put ourselves down and look at ‘what is wrong’ rather than who we truly are. Babies just are – and are loved and adored for just being themselves……..

  18. This beauty, that we do not allow in full – we do know, we feel it, we say we do – but no way allow in full, and that already is an attack, a dismissal. In full intake, it stops the world.

  19. It’s so deeply stilling to read this. We so often do not equate beauty as our shared collective truth, especially with the horrors of this world in terms of extreme and violent behaviour, but also because of the daily way we whittle ourselves down and deny there is anything good about us. It’s true, we do wallow in being less, when the true step that needs to be made to restore ourselves and this world is to embrace and live from our love and universal beauty.

  20. ” One look at the world today and it is clear things aren’t going so well.”
    This is so true and this writing has shown the potential that is available to us all if we only let it out and give birth to our true self.

    1. Taking more responsibility for ourselves, our health, vitality and how we treat ourselves and others every day would be a good first step. This is entirely possible. A new world awaits.

  21. ‘No charity, movement or leader has ever been able to change this warring world and those that tried have typically been hung, drawn and quartered.’ If we first seek to stop the wars within and those in our own back yard so to speak this will then have a ripple affect out to the world where wars after eons are still currently happening. It will truly be a day to celebrate when we no longer have war.

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