My Frozen Shoulders and the Big Thaw

A number of months ago I started to ‘feel,’ for the very first time, my shoulders. I didn’t feel the beauty of them or even their connection to my arms and the rest of my body. What I felt was how frozen they were.

Frozen as in a numbness that went so much deeper than numb, I can only describe it as frozen. I would reach back and press my fingers into different areas across my shoulders and not feel a thing. All that was there was a solid wall, if you will, that no feeling could penetrate. It was the oddest sensation and I kept pressing my fingers into my shoulders and upper back area at different times of the day as if checking that it was true, that I couldn’t feel a thing and I would ask myself how this could be possible.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have movement in my shoulders or that there was a total disconnection – it was, I realised, that my shoulders and upper back area were always tensed. Once I started to tune into this feeling of tenseness, I became curious about how it would feel to be without tension in these areas and I started focussing on relaxing them every time my attention was drawn to them, whether walking, sitting at my desk at work, driving or cooking. What I noticed most however, was the way I woke in the morning.

I would wake up with my head halfway off the pillow, my jaw clenched shut and my entire body braced for fight or flight. A lifetime of sleeping and waking this way eventually takes its toll – no wonder I was completely and utterly exhausted!

I made a choice to nominate on a daily basis this manner in which I woke. I started setting my alarm clock 15 minutes earlier than usual to spend those extra minutes focussing on and feeling my body, in particular across my shoulders, as I lay in bed.

I did not judge or question my body or myself: I simply spent time relaxing the areas of my body that were tense and poised for fight or flight. It wasn’t easy at first as the minute I would relax the muscles in a certain area, they would be tensed and ready to jump again before I knew it.

Although I continued to wake with my jaw clenched and my body braced, these 15 minutes every morning were introducing the opportunity to re-learn how to be in my body with less tension for longer moments of time. Moment by moment my body started responding and slowly the unfamiliarity of this new way of being in my body began to abate.

I also started to feel a new sensation across my shoulders and upper back area, a sort of tingling, like the burning/tingling sensation you get when the tips of your fingers are starting to thaw from being out in the snow for too long. At times this burning sensation in my shoulders was difficult to endure as its presence was fairly constant, however I welcomed it as a change from the frozen feeling of numbness and accepted that it was a very physical indication that some sort of transformation was beginning to take place.

I had intensely disliked my shoulders from the time I was in my early teens. I swam and did springboard diving as well as gymnastics throughout my teenage years and I took on the belief that it was the strength I was building in my shoulders that made them look and feel so broad. On a subtler level there was also the understanding that I was actually wielding them as a weapon to keep people out and my true self locked in.

Looking back now, I can see and feel how what I was doing was simply building a fortress across my shoulders as a response to, and to protect myself from, the energetic attacks directed at me from the time I was a child. I had been living with the energy of terror as a result of these attacks from a very young age … the fight or flight reaction eventually became automatic and a learned way for me to be in my body.

While I was growing up I was unaware of all the many little choices I had been making and the consequences and impact they would have on my body and wellbeing. Being able to neither fight nor flee, the energy began to accumulate in my shoulders.

All these years I thought it was my shoulders I hated. Over the last few weeks I have come to realise that it was not my shoulders I so despised but the energy stored in them.

As the freeze continued to thaw, the burning/tingling sensation across my shoulders would come and go depending on how present I was with myself and with my body. When I wasn’t present in the moment, I would find my body automatically defaulting back to its familiar holding pattern of old but with the added burning/tingling sensation; it became a great joy to actually feel this as an uncomfortable feeling in my body rather than feeling absolutely nothing at all due to my shoulder area being under the ‘big freeze.’

This tingling sensation became my sign to pause, gather myself and adjust the way I was sitting, walking, driving and moving. In doing so, I started feeling a newfound freedom in my muscles and cells that has allowed for my shoulders to drop to a much more relaxed natural position. My neck and jaw have responded accordingly and this then has filtered down to how I am moving with and in the rest of my body, allowing for a deeper stillness that I can feel building from which my movements are expressing forth.

In an afternoon, some months ago my body started to shake. This shaking started from my shoulder area and went the length of my arms, with my hands shaking uncontrollably. My upper torso was shaking too, to the point where my son had to support me to get from the car into the house. Rather than freaking out, I started observing this shaking in my body which had moved down into my legs as well. I had a very strong feeling that I needed to come back to my centre and that my body needed to be handled with tenderness and great care. After several failed attempts I somehow managed to connect to the stillness within me and as I did so, the shaking lessened and my jaw relaxed somewhat. This ebb and flow continued for several hours but at some point I was able to lie down in bed and fall asleep.

I woke the next morning completely and utterly drained, with a high temperature and a splitting headache. I stayed in bed all day, mostly sleeping. As my body restored itself, I began to understand that my body was undergoing a mega clearing of the energy stored.

The high temperature, the shaking and the clenched jaw were the coming to the surface and the release in action of the energy of terror that I had been keeping imprisoned within my shoulder area for a lifetime.

Several weeks ago, I woke for the very first time with my head resting on the pillow, my upper body muscles relaxed and a new feeling in my body – close to what the feeling of being rested must be like. Waking up in a body void of being braced for attack felt almost a defeat at first, like I was finally letting the destructive energy win.

As I lay in bed allowing myself to feel the truth of what was taking place, I began to feel a sense of awe. The realisation that this must be what waking up is all about… feeling rested and refreshed, filled with joy for waking in a body that feels amazing.

This deep inner healing has reflected for me the truth of what true healing is all about and that there is no one else who can bestow true healing or indeed a miracle upon me. The Esoteric Practitioners of Universal Medicine can lovingly and beautifully support me in my healing, however it is I who chooses my own healing and my own miracle; the loving choices I make on a moment by moment basis enable me to move in such a way as to those movements being ones of self-love and healing.

Re-learning to make my choices loving ones has come about through my attendance at Universal Medicine workshops, courses and sessions presented by Serge Benhayon and Natalie Benhayon, and by being witness to the absolute commitment and dedication to truth that these amazing beings and their family live with and move in.

By Brigette Evans, a woman re-claiming and returning to her true self, Worcestershire, UK

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726 thoughts on “My Frozen Shoulders and the Big Thaw

  1. I love how simply feeling a tensed area in our body from the inside out can set a whole healing process into movement.

  2. True healing takes place in the body once we are willing to let go of the hurts, trauma and well-constructed protection from past experiences. Universal Medicine teaches us how we can do this, which is incredibly empowering and liberating.

  3. Such a great sharing Brigette! We can carry round certain ailments all our lives even take them to the grave and have them next time around, or we can wise up and start majorly looking after and loving ourselves and let no stone unturned where issues are concerned, and wake up each morning feeling great and ready to live another day.

  4. I love what you are sharing here and can really relate to it, also the commitment to gradually deepen your feeling for what is going on each moment is super inspiring, to wake and feel your body and gradually introduce that love so that you can sleep like that all the time is something i’m going to test out myself.

  5. It can be astonishing how much comes up in one body to clear in a lifetime, and can be very uncomfortable, and at the same time it is our amazing expansion and return to all that we are that is displacing it to be let go of, so something to appreciate too.

  6. It is quite incredible to feel how much was happening in your shoulders throughout your whole life and how healing the freezing and unfreezing has been to deepen your connection to the body. The body supports us so much by not letting us hold onto the clenching and bracing, but getting rid of that tension gives us a new opportunity to change our choices.

  7. We are our own healer, we need support once in a while but literally everything we need is right in front of us on offer. We simply have to allow and connect to it.

  8. It seems to me that we can be so seemingly unaware of the energy held in our bodies until we start to release it. Becoming aware is a great thing to do as it is a bit like getting a spatula underneath it and it starts to loosen.

  9. Every part of our body is there to communicate something to us. To bring an understanding of our momentum and give an opportunity to stop and reconsider. There is wisdom in our aches and pains and we can only learn and understand them if we are open to listen to the communication from our bodies.

    1. Aches and pain are a great marker to remind us of going too far against our body. Not regarding them as a curse is the true way of healing.

  10. Totally with you on that one Brigette, I would far rather be aware of what is going on, even if it is uncomfortable or painful, than feeling absolutely nothing at all due to being under the ‘big freeze.

  11. What I love about the body is it will always ask us to deepen and clear, sometimes it gives the subtlest of feedback and sometimes it lands a big-boom call, but whichever ones we receive, it’s an opportunity to bring more of who we are.

  12. Step by step if we introduce gentleness, care and respect into our relationship with ourselves and the way we move in our days, we open up the endless opportunity to have these as developing and building qualities in our lives.

  13. I just did Esoteric yoga and it was so lovely to feel my Connection in my heart And from there the surrendering of my shoulders.

    1. It is remarkable what effect it has, when we totally surrender with our shoulders. I love Esoteric Yoga, as it is a great support and tool to let go of everything our mind puts us in with its thoughts .

  14. Remarkable how we can take not feeling anything as a normal. I have the same with my legs, they don’t hurt, but I hardly feel anything in them. For me it is time for a big thaw here as well, where I apply the same procedure as you Brigitte.

  15. ‘Although I continued to wake with my jaw clenched and my body braced, these 15 minutes every morning were introducing the opportunity to re-learn how to be in my body with less tension for longer moments of time.’ It feels so lovely to return to this blog as one of the tools in my tool kit. I was feeling tension in my body this evening and as I read the above paragraph I was reminded to feel the tension in my own face and how my own jaw was clenched and body braced which was all I needed to start allowing myself to let it go.

  16. This shows to me the power of making consistent commitment to being more aware of our body, where we hold excess tension and from that re-imprinting how we ‘do’ life.

  17. Amazing Brigitte to come to realise how much you had taken on as a teenager in relation to your shoulders and allowed that to colour your relationship to that part of your body for so much of your adult life. No doubt there are many of us who have had a similar experience with parts of our bodies but who may not have had such an awakening as you as to why it exists. So thank you for sharing your unfolding journey.

  18. I understand how you liken building a fortress around yourself and your frozen shoulders, we harden off and protect ourselves from all the world throws at us. To know we can break down the walls with connection to the body shows the power of gentleness and love.

  19. An excellent expose of the way energy is at play behind our ills and that we don’t have to to be victims and yet accept the healing process as you have done here. A fabulous inspiration and a credit to true healing.

  20. A beautiful sharing of the unlocking of the body with the release and surrender this allows , amazing magical and true healing. Inspirational !

  21. When parts of my body have felt numb (i.e. it was hard to feel anything in that area) it has taken a lot of focus over time to restore feeling to it. It has been a part of my body that I have completely ignored so the focus is needed as a correction of the imbalance. There will be a reason why I ignored it and that layer of feeling is waiting to be felt and healed.

  22. Deepening the connection with my shoulders and particularly just inside the shoulders has allowed a whole other level of appreciation for the delicateness that is within me.

  23. I had a great practise the last weeks.
    A lot of negativity came towards me and I felt how my shoulders went into hardening, protection.
    Then I made everyday those inner decisions that I will keep myself open and just feel. And when my shoulders start to freeze I just made gentle movements to open up again. What really helped was feeling my heart my heart within my chest. To shine out, a true protection.

  24. There seem to be layers and layers of this awareness, a constant unpeeling as we make our movements more in line with the Love we are from as opposed to everything we are bracing ourselves against.

  25. Thank you Brigette for the sharing. I have been going through a very similar process with my shoulders. It has been a process of awareness and letting go. Letting go and accepting that everything will be all right. That I am safe to feel what ever I need to feel. Yes,the tension on my body is slowly going!

  26. As a healthcare professional I have observed how people can deeply withdraw from some parts of their own bodies and because of that lack of awareness they don’t realise it until a major dysfunction presents itself.

  27. I’ve been noticing lately how stiff my shoulders feel and I also realised how much I struggle to have my arm behind my back to scratch myself or even how hard it is to touch my shoulder blade. Though I am in my 40’s I just initially assumed this was part of growing older. But more recently I have noticed women much older than me being able to do the above mentioned moves with ease and this has made me realise there is more at play. So perhaps there is a ‘thaw’ in order for me too…thanks you for this great reminder!

  28. What the physical body is able to manifest, clear and heal and the accompanying symptoms never cease to amaze me – and it can happen when we get out of the way, become honest and take responsibility and the needed action that will support the body.

    1. I have a deeper understanding of what you have shared here since I gave it a go. We must always ensure we support ourselves physically, whether that by via a medical professional or through our own self-care, yet by listening to the body on that deeply surrendered level, we hear what we need to do and where we need to be to support the body to heal.

  29. It is extraordinary to observe how the mind and body go together to present the medical conditions and symptoms that we have.

  30. Being responsive to our bodies is an ongoing opportunity we have to constantly learn and deepen our understanding of life. I really enjoy articles such as these as points of inspiration to be a willing listener to my body.

    1. I love what you have shared here Fiona – sometimes it really takes a stop to be able to take stock of how we are feeling and realise the tension we are holding. And only once we are fully aware, can we begin to let go and once we have let go, it is as you have said, quite incredible to feel the level of freedom that we were holding ourselves away from.

  31. Allowing ourselves to feel more and be willing to embrace what is there is akin to a healing crisis at times where if and when we finally allow the body a voice to be heard, it is like it has to have so much come out at a time that we can fall sick or feel unwell. Obviously medical support is a key aspect of supporting us through this phase, but an understanding that there is something else going on, a release of sorts, so that we can then work on a much cleaner slate and continue to listen and heed the body and its messages. This is all about re-building our relationship with self and deepening the quality of care that we are offering to ourselves and hence all those around us.

  32. I have also had parts of my body that have been completely numbed out, not necessarily in a medical sense of having been diagnosed with frozen shoulder, but it is like a part of me does not want to feel a certain part of my body at all. And when we first get sensation in that area again it can initially feel very unpleasant or uncomfortable and even painful. But once I have allowed myself to feel this, then I am aware of a deeper warmth that comes from connecting with the body and this is when it begins to feel so much more alive and actually lovely to be with. I am still learning to allow myself to feel more and more and more…

  33. My shoulders tell me so much about the way I have been with myself during the day. I love to go for a walk in the evening and feel the Frozen shoulder thaw start to happen.

  34. It is very difficult to let love in and out when we live life in the brace position and lock ourselves out of the Kingdom within.

    1. Spot on Liane, when we go into the protection mode, no love can come in and no love can come out. Hence protection is a hardening and bracing as you have said which does not really serve any purpose in healing. And thus the first phase in the healing is to thaw the protection. How simple and yet the biggest challenge at times to let go of the protection we have armoured ourselves with.

  35. What a remarkable account Brigette of how it is possible to change the state of the body simply by deeply connecting with it in a loving and consistent way. What an education this is, and how radically transforming this would be if introduced to us as children.

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