Recently I have been reflecting on the many ways I have sought comfort in the past, and I realise how for most of us these would have been considered normal ways of living. I am becomingly increasingly aware of the dullness in my body when I choose many of these comforts now, but there are times when I still make choices that are not fully supportive for me.
With a deepened honesty and awareness of the truth of how I am living, let me share the many ways I have been in comfort.
I now feel I am in comfort when:
- I pride myself on having a diet that is dairy and gluten free but do not heed how my body truly feels when eating these foods.
- I create sugar free recipes that use dried fruits and other ‘sweeteners’ without acknowledging that I am still craving something sweet in order to numb myself to what I am truly feeling.
- I buy a ‘treat’ for myself just because I have had a very busy week and I feel I deserve this.
- I use the excuse of needing to connect to a friend I may not have seen for a while to take time out to see a movie which I can feel is emotional and of little substance, or to go shopping with little real purpose.
- I can list all the Universal Medicine courses I have been to, or the ones I am going to go to, without really living each day what has been so majestically and practically presented to us.
- I am mindlessly flicking through the magazines at the checkout aisle in the supermarket as I wait to be served – checking out at the checkout!
- I feel that I earn enough money, live in a nice home and have great friends and yet I never question whether how I am living is evolving/growing me and those around me.
- I feel proud of my children because of what they have achieved and how they present themselves, without questioning whether I am allowing them to be on their own journey in life and graciously accepting the choices they are making.
- I feel better because someone else is going through a bad time or has made less than desirable decisions, and hence I may feel that they are not as ‘evolved’ as I am.
- I give financially to a charity or disaster appeal and feel that I have done my part without actually reading and understanding why this disaster might be happening in the world.
- I feel great after a walk in nature and do not acknowledge that I spent a good deal of the walk thinking about other things.
- At times I have sought comfort in the personal connections with others, rather than appreciating my own inner gorgeousness and the equality of the connection.
When I am in comfort I can feel that there is no call for me to be ‘more’ in how I am living or to strengthen my connection to myself and to God. I am holding onto the status quo as I feel good and I have ticked all the boxes for a ‘good’ life.
I am noticing that when I am in comfort and am choosing to not feel the call of my heart, I get restless and irritable and start blaming others around me for how I am. I feel an unsettlement in my body and can be very self-critical in my thoughts.
At times I still make choices which dull my body but do so without judgment or condemnation of my choices; rather I appreciate the deepening awareness of how I am living and of the roadblocks I intermittently put in the way of having a deeper and more loving connection to myself and the sacredness that can be found in that connection.
I am a forever student committed to reconnecting more fully with my inner-self and my world family, and deeply appreciate and feel huge support from the teachings of the Ancient Wisdom that Serge Benhayon presents for us all, if we choose to feel the truth of what is being shared.
By Anne Hishon – a gorgeous woman, a loving mum and partner, compassionate nurse, Tauranga, NZ