I am at last learning to be playful (in my 70’s!)

by Beverley Croft, NSW, Australia

For most of my life through to my late 60′s I was a very nervy, highly strung, withdrawn woman with very little self-confidence and few friends. I spoke sharply and very fast (nervy), and was always rushing to do things, totally unaware of how this was affecting my body. I hated myself and my role as a woman. I buried myself in books so I did not feel any of this. I was widowed in my mid 60′s and continued my search for why I felt so unhappy inside. My husband had been pretty controlling, but as I realised much later, I had let this happen. He was a good man and never violent physically. Who knows what our relationship could have been if I had been the woman I now am?

In my late 60′s I was introduced to Serge Benhayon and his healing practices. I also discovered his wonderful family and the loving practitioners who have supported me over the last six years or so. Now well in my 70′s, I am a very different woman, and proud to be one. I am being told by friends that I am getting younger as I get older, and inside me, I feel it. I am at last learning to be playful.

With the consistent love of Serge, his family and his wonderful staff, my life has been transformed. My life is now such a joy, and the wonderful camaraderie I have with fellow students is a joy to behold and feel.

I have never been told by Serge to do anything, but have been guided to feel for myself what was right and true for me. His only suggestion to me has been ‘BE LOVE’. Our work is based on discovering the love that we ALL truly are in our essence. I have now seen there is another way to live this life we are all part of. We work on ourselves AT OUR OWN PACE as we unfold. There is no pressure, rules, beliefs or dogma. Serge, his family and practitioners all SHARE with us what they themselves have learned.

Yes, I CHOOSE to eat no gluten or dairy, and eat what feels right for my body, go to bed early and get up early and TRY to honour my body in all that I do, i.e. I no longer over-ride how my body feels.

I have developed a deep sense of love for myself and others that leaves me in a wonderful joy most of the time. Yes, I have little ups and downs, but very few now. I am still A WORK IN PROGRESS and will be for the rest of my life. I now have a lovely number of friends within and outside the student community. I no longer rush anywhere, bury myself in books to escape, but embrace life and people fully.

For this beautiful transformation of myself, I am heart fully thank full to the man I now regard as a great friend, Serge Benhayon; the two words that epitomise Serge and his work are LOVE and INTEGRITY. Heaven knows where I would have ended up without meeting him. A very lonely, bitter old woman by now, blaming anyone but myself for how I was, and not taking my own responsibility for how I would have been.

237 thoughts on “I am at last learning to be playful (in my 70’s!)

  1. Beverley a really beautiful and inspiring blog for many. ‘With the consistent love of Serge, his family and his wonderful staff, my life has been transformed. My life is now such a joy, and the wonderful camaraderie I have with fellow students is a joy to behold and feel.’ Wonderful how your life is now playful and loving full of friends of all ages, very different to many at your age who lead very lonely and separated lives.

  2. ‘I hated myself and my role as a woman.’ Thank you for this honesty Beverley. I wonder how many women have felt or still feel like this? I know I did – more so in my role as a woman, though self-loathing has featured in my life too. Wow, we do give ourselves a hard time or what, beating ourselves up and rejecting ourselves for who we are at the most fundamental levels! Thankfully, also with the help of Serge Benhayon, I have come to understand myself as the true woman, and that has supported with both dilemmas. Being a woman is not a role, it’s who I am.

  3. One thing I love about this article is that it proves the adage ‘It’s never too late to learn’. If you’re open to learning, you’ll joyfully be doing so ’til your last breath!

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    “Heaven knows where I would have ended up without meeting him[Serge Benhayon]” This could be the epitath for thousands of people and millions to come.

  5. “Heaven knows where I would have ended up without meeting him [Serge Benhayon]” This could be the epitaph for thousands of people now and millions to come.

  6. It is inspirational to read your blog again Beverley. I can relate to a lot of what you share here, and that age is no barrier to playfulness and joy in ones life. Life is how we make it!

    1. Hear, hear Roslyn I agree and this is what I love about Beverley’s blog, no matter what age we are we can choose to be joyful and playful.

  7. I just love your honesty Beverley that perhaps there was a potential that was not lived in your relationship with your husband when you shared ‘Who knows what our relationship could have been if I had been the woman I now am?’ As we learn and grow it is important to reflect on where we have come from to get the full appreciation of who we are now.

  8. To have somebody like Serge Benhayon as a friend in your life is pretty special, as he is an extraordinary man. But then his friendship is not exclusively for you, it is for all, if we choose so, because he does not exclude anybody, despite his busy life and the many people he is seeing. I suppose Serge would also call me his friend. I still have accept that he is my friend, putting him still a bit above me, letting go of the belief that such man, who for me is the new world teacher, is so accessible and offers his friendship also to me.

  9. That’s awesome. Who wants to be a bitter old woman when you can be the very example you’re living every day! And, this example is accessible to each and every one of us no matter what our back story is. That’s the beauty of choice and love…it’s for every one.

  10. I love that you are a shining example of how it is never too late to embrace who we truly are and transform our life accordingly through the loving choices we make. We are indeed forever a work in progress but as you have embodied… an inspiration at any age.

  11. Being in my late 60’s I love the idea that as I get older I can actually become more play-full instead of buying into the accepted belief that as you get older life slows right down and you with it; the dismantling of this normal is one that I am more than delighted to be part of.

    1. It is definitely going against the trend, that seems to be as you get older the sparkle in you dwindles and dwindles until it finally expires. I love that you ladies are rewriting normal and showing the sparkle can always be there.

  12. “embrace life and people fully” So true Beverley. I am in my late 60s and thanks to the inspiration of Serge Benhayon and all he presents I am no longer conforming to the ideals and beliefs I had of how an older woman should behave and am free to have fun, embrace life and people fully and reconnect to the inner child I had buried under layers of shoulds and shouldn’ts.

  13. It is like we live our whole life pushing love away from ourselves, then someone comes along and says we are love – we are left with two choices – either decide that person is mad and stick with the lovelessness we are choosing for ourselves, or give it a go and try living like one to see if that is true. And I definitely think it is an experiment worth giving it a go.

  14. The greatest journey we can be on is confirming, deepening and expanding the love that we are. My heart-full thanks to Serge Benhayon, his family, and all the wonderful practitioners and students of Universal Medicine. The world is a better place.

  15. Such a delight to read this Beverly. For anyone who is committing to trying out for themselves choices to live their everyday in another way from the familiar acceptable society type choices that are very mainstream, soon seem to discover there is a much deeper pool with-in of all wonderful qualities that are over laid and busting to come out and play.

  16. Beverly, I’m so glad you chose not to be a bitter old woman! Ha, I think we have enough bitter people out there. More of you please and thank you!!

  17. It is simply amazing to read your story and others on this site, makes me appreciate even more the positive impact Universal Medicine has on people’s lives! What Serge Benhayon, and other practitioners from Universal Medicine, reflect and through their livingness are able to achieve are true miracles. I know a lot of elderly people and they are usually very set in their ways and do not change much anymore, for you to be able to share how you turned your life around at 60 is absolutely against this trend.

  18. I can relate to the rush and the nervous tension you speak of Beverley that has resulted in what I want to say or do coming out jerky and incomplete or, just not how I planned or wanted it to come out. But finally, with what I have learned through Universal Medicine presentations, workshops and the support of the healing modalities I am starting to slow down and become far more observational and graceful with how I move and communicate. And it feels so much better, so much more me.

  19. A touching story from a person that by age alone is a respected member of any community. It’s great to see when people totally transform their lives and now hold themselves and others with more care and love than at any time previous. It greater still to see them write about it like this and see Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine truly given the respect they deserve. The facts are in front of you if you care to look, read and see. People are being supported beyond anything we have in our current world and from there they are growing into the people they have always seen themselves to be and ones that are leading the community in many ways. No need for fan fare and no smoke or mirrors just good old fashioned and down to earth care, love and respect for themselves that then goes out into every corner of their life. From where I stand it’s simply great to see.

  20. The transformations of you and many others are unchallengeable testimony to the power of what Serge Benhayon presents.

  21. This article is an inspiration.
    Literally choosing to halt the blame and choose again responsibility is life changing and as shared here can be a very joyous process, especially once acceptance of our self and our circumstances is gracefully lived.

  22. Awesome blog Beverley, I can relate to what you’ve shared. Your transformation is incredible and hugely inspiring. You’ve shown us how playful and fun life can be when we are willing to take responsibility for life, our choices and what happens to us.

    1. Spot on Chan – and the funny thing is that taking responsibility for life and for our choices is actually a great anti-aging technique as well as hugely joyful, just like Beverley has shared in her blog!

  23. Old age doesn’t have to be old woes. We can transcend whatever previous hurts and disappointments heal and begin again on the path of return to love. And when we do, we feel lighter, walk with love and bring these qualities where-ever we may be.

  24. We can change, and boy oh boy can we! and you bring/are a great example of how this is possible. The trick is to not turn ourselves into another portrait we have of us but to let go of all the images and ideas how we think we need to be and learn to live from our heart again.

  25. Wow you are such an inspiration to us all that even at 60 there is light at the end of the tunnel and that we can still change our lives around, how cool to be told at 70 that you are getting younger everyday that is magical.

  26. I have at times also asked myself ‘where would I be now if I hadn’t met Serge Benhayon?’ Now and mid-way through my sixth decade, I walk with purpose, value and love my life and contribute to my community in which-ever way I can. All because I have come to love and adore myself.

  27. As we get older we will experience physical changes in our bodies, this is not synonymous with decline in our experience of life, our openness and joyfulness. Connected to divinity we can live life fully until we die.

  28. Truly beautifull to read. ‘Heaven knows where I would have ended up without meeting him. A very lonely, bitter old woman by now, blaming anyone but myself for how I was, and not taking my own responsibility for how I would have been.’ I (and I am sure thousands at the least) could say the same thing … heaven only knows where I would be without Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Growing up no matter what I did my life started to steadily and slowly go off track until it fell completely off the rails I was living a life that I knew to the core of my being was not me but no matter what I tried nothing could truly change this … that was until I met Serge Benhayon who asked really sensible questions I heard no one else speak, who taught me to STOP … just stop and feel what was going on. To change the ill momentum I was running with and living in and to start slowly and lovingly discard all that is not me .. ill ideals and beliefs. The result ,. the same as you .. my life has completely turned around through choices I have made and I have more love for myself and others as well as commitment to life, than I ever have had before. It is well and truly back on track. Just observing Serge in how he moves and how he speaks is healing and a lesson in itself. I feel the truth is, with every single one on of us on the planet, it is always ‘work in progress’ consistently so as we always have something to learn and something to heal. It is never ending. Even if you have so much love within your body there is always a deeper level to drop into and express from.

  29. I love your approach to life, in particular this line: “Who knows what our relationship could have been if I had been the woman I now am?” No blame, no judgement, just total self-responsibility and an open, humble curiosity… Just love it.

  30. I know from my own experience that it is the most magnificent thing in the world to feel again the joy that is, dare I say, forever bubbling out from with in our bodies. I have come to feel that it takes great force to hold it in and like Beverley, am eternally grateful to Serge Benhayon for his love, and his willingness to show us all how to again connect with our own.

  31. Your are truly inspirational Beverly, living the joy you know is you and true! And yes you are still work in progress as we all are as Students of the Way Of the Livingness, we choose evolution, to grow and be the Sons of God we are.

  32. It is wonderful to meet people in their later years and find them not burdened by their life experiences, for many it is a load upon load but what you describe Beverly is an understanding and unloading of events, a freeing of yourself. To see someone so light and fun in their 70s is a joy to be around. We can be as playful and fun in our later years as at any other time in life. Thank you.

  33. “I am a very different woman, and proud to be one” is the line that stood out for me in reading your blog today Beverly. For me it says it all, the transformational process we all have to go on our path of return to who we truly are.

  34. Beverley you are an awesome inspiration to many, so many women give up as they get older you have just got brighter, lighter and more filled with love and joy. Now thats a blue print for us all to be inspired by.

  35. Many people give up or get bitter when they get older and there is much reason for that if we just look at the world as it is. But the fact is there is much more to life and that are the facts that bring true joy to life like you described so well: “I have developed a deep sense of love for myself and others that leaves me in a wonderful joy most of the time.”.

  36. “I am being told by friends that I am getting younger as I get older, and inside me, I feel it. I am at last learning to be playful.” – Playfullness is certainly the antidote to aging!

  37. Beverley, how lovely to have gifted this to yourself as a result of the inspiration from Serge: “I have developed a deep sense of love for myself and others that leaves me in a wonderful joy most of the time.” – Not every 70 year old can make a claim and statement such as this, and it is super powerful to live each day with this knowing and further, to appreciate it more and more. It is never about perfection and I love how you are so aware of this, and hold this and yourself with the preciousness that we all deserve!

  38. Ha! So glad there is one less bitter old woman in the world! Who needs it, when we have the opportunity for a ray of sunshine like yourself Beverley?

  39. Beverley this is such a beautiful testimony to read how much your life has changed since committing to working on your ‘stuff’ and re-discovering more of who you really are. It goes to show that anyone can make changes at any age, if they want to.

  40. “… the two words that epitomise Serge and his work are LOVE and INTEGRITY.” A love and integrity that inspires us to resume the same qualities within us, feeling what is correct for our bodies and us thus restoring our joy. What you have experienced Beverley is an immense miracle, transforming what would have been a very miserable old age into a joyful, vital life. Awesome and living proof that anyone at any age can completely turn their lives around!

  41. Beautiful to read of your transformation Beverley of opening up to the love that you are and opening to allow people into your life. So many have been inspired to change their lives by the reflection of love and understanding and equality that they have been met with by Serge, he is a true role model who lives in his daily life the truth that he shares with us all.

  42. Healing is a hard and very dedicated work and a free choice we can make or not make. Going for it is the most gracious gift to yourself and the opportunity to meet you for the first time. There is never late to feel your spark and the beauty it brings to the world.

  43. Knowing you Beverley, I was amazed to read your opening paragraph as I never would have guessed you used to be like that. It’s a credit to you and the choice you have made and thank God for the helping hand of Serge Benhayon – you are a beautiful role model.

  44. Never too late to be playful and there is no age limit to play! Whenever it is impulsed from our inside, we cannot but be playful. Every 70 year old can be inspired by you Beverley!

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