I am at Last Learning to be Playful (in my 70’s!)

by Beverley Croft, NSW, Australia

For most of my life through to my late 60′s I was a very nervy, highly strung, withdrawn woman with very little self-confidence and few friends. I spoke sharply and very fast (nervy), and was always rushing to do things, totally unaware of how this was affecting my body. I hated myself and my role as a woman. I buried myself in books so I did not feel any of this. I was widowed in my mid 60′s and continued my search for why I felt so unhappy inside. My husband had been pretty controlling, but as I realised much later, I had let this happen. He was a good man and never violent physically. Who knows what our relationship could have been if I had been the woman I now am?

In my late 60′s I was introduced to Serge Benhayon and his healing practices. I also discovered his wonderful family and the loving practitioners who have supported me over the last six years or so. Now well in my 70′s, I am a very different woman, and proud to be one. I am being told by friends that I am getting younger as I get older, and inside me, I feel it. I am at last learning to be playful.

With the consistent love of Serge, his family and his wonderful staff, my life has been transformed. My life is now such a joy, and the wonderful camaraderie I have with fellow students is a joy to behold and feel.

I have never been told by Serge to do anything, but have been guided to feel for myself what was right and true for me. His only suggestion to me has been ‘BE LOVE’. Our work is based on discovering the love that we ALL truly are in our essence. I have now seen there is another way to live this life we are all part of. We work on ourselves AT OUR OWN PACE as we unfold. There is no pressure, rules, beliefs or dogma. Serge, his family and practitioners all SHARE with us what they themselves have learned.

Yes, I CHOOSE to eat no gluten or dairy, and eat what feels right for my body, go to bed early and get up early and TRY to honour my body in all that I do, i.e. I no longer over-ride how my body feels.

I have developed a deep sense of love for myself and others that leaves me in a wonderful joy most of the time. Yes, I have little ups and downs, but very few now. I am still A WORK IN PROGRESS and will be for the rest of my life. I now have a lovely number of friends within and outside the student community. I no longer rush anywhere, bury myself in books to escape, but embrace life and people fully.

For this beautiful transformation of myself, I am heart fully thank full to the man I now regard as a great friend, Serge Benhayon; the two words that epitomise Serge and his work are LOVE and INTEGRITY. Heaven knows where I would have ended up without meeting him. A very lonely, bitter old woman by now, blaming anyone but myself for how I was, and not taking my own responsibility for how I would have been.

275 thoughts on “I am at Last Learning to be Playful (in my 70’s!)

  1. How incredible is it to be told to just be love! Discovering that this is actually the most important job of all before anything else, to love ourselves in everything we do. If we can truly love ourselves first then anything else that comes after that will come with all the love that other people can also feel and respond to.

  2. Thank you Beverley, it’s always a joyful experience reading about your “beautiful transformation”. What came to me reading is how gentle the process actually is working with Serge and Universal Medicine. Yes, at times it can be challenging and difficult, even painful within ourselves to face our hurts and traumas, but the actual support from Universal Medicine and their therapies, and all the presentations and workshops by Serge are delivered with so much love.

  3. I agree with you Beverley that we work on ourselves at our own pace and there is definitely no rules, beliefs, dogma quite the opposite in fact. I have found that actually we seem to be living quite the opposite to how we could be living because of all the self imposed rules and regulations and dogma that keep us controlled and so lesser in life.

  4. This reminds me of how I used to think I was free – free to make choice and do whatever I wanted, which basically meant free to be wayward and abusive – that was the entitlement I was so proud to brandish; and the inevitable consequences – I just blamed all on ‘life’ and whatever that meant. We like to think we are in control, but how true is that when we are not even choosing to be love that we are by nature?

  5. A beautiful testimony to all that is offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to discover the truth and joy of who we truly are.

  6. It is the loving choices for ourselves that bring true change and has us settle within our bodies, if we seek contentment in others or things we will always be dependent on what the world gives us.

  7. There is no part of me that would wish to go back to eating gluten and dairy, I would feel so tired by the afternoon when I was eating gluten and reliant on coffee and other stimulants to keep me going. I would then continue with other props such as alcohol and crisps at the end of the day to get me through. I was exhausted and there is no way I could have done then what I do now if I had carried on with my concoction of unhealthy ways.

  8. I love how you describe yourself as a work in progress, I love that we are all works in progress, it removes the need for perfection and to be right and allows us to freely and openly explore life and who we are, knowing that this isn’t the end but just the beginning.

  9. I love the humbleness and absence of judgment in what you share here Beverley. The essence of responsibility you reflect here around your relationship with your husband is very refreshing.

    1. That struck me too Richard that there was no blame towards Beverley’s husband just a wondering of what the potential may have been had Beverley claimed herself in full.

  10. Credit to you Beverley for not giving up. Life for women in their elder years when husbands have died often feels empty and purposeless. And yet you show there is another way. You found purpose by being you and deeply loving yourself. At any age this opens many doors, including the capacity to be at ease with self and playful.

    1. Purpose is such a vital thing – at any age. I am certain we are innately purposeful beings and hence even in our ‘so-called’ retirement, we must still have purpose. And what a glorious purpose it is to ‘be you’ ever more deeply.

  11. Thank you Beverly for sharing so openly the very real changes you have been able to make with the support of Serge Benhayon. Like yourself I have also felt very empowered by Serge’s work and support to change my own life, and the tools such as the Gentle Breath Meditation and Sacred Esoteric Healing courses have provided me with ways to support myself in daily life to stay connected to myself and to the essence of love within me. The way back to our soul unfolds at its own unique pace and way for each of us because it’s really based on our own free will. Serge is a truly amazing supporter of humanity and friend to many.

    1. I feel Melinda that Beverley speaks for many of us who have discovered Universal Medicine and the presentations of Serge Benhayon. Through this support we have found a greater capacity for life which is never ending because of the reunion with our soul. This way of life is open to everyone who wishes to understand that yearning, that there has to be more to life than just existing from day to day.

  12. Wow Beverley what a change you have made! I am very inspired as I can feel now that becoming older is a joy and not a burden. More people should read that such a change is possible.

  13. Thank you, Beverley, for being so real. I used to work with the elderly and have seen many lonely and sad women and men in their later years just (in their own words) waiting to die. But what you are saying and showing the world is another way of being that says you don’t have to live like that as you age and that life can change depending on your own choices.

    1. It’s a great comment Julie, it’s almost a cliche that the elderly are given up because it’s so widespread. Beverley has brought new life and awareness to how ageing can be – committed to ourselves, to our self love and care, to the love of humanity, and committed to engaging in life in full.

  14. There is an ageless and genderless beauty in us when we choose be the Love that we are. It is a joy to see this pure gorgeousness in men and women who are making the choice to just be, something ignites in me and lovingly invites me to celebrate myself for sharing the same preciousness within.

    1. ‘It is a joy to see this pure gorgeousness in men and women who are making the choice to just be’ Yes Inma and how beautiful it is to let ourselves be ignited by it and allow ourselves to be as well..

  15. Beverley by reading your experience with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I can see how much joy and playfulness brings taking the responsibility of the choices we make. It is a simple choice that changes all and – like you are doing today – can inspire others to do the same. An empowering approach to life that feels very rich and fullfilling.

  16. We often feel our life’s work is something outside of ourselves: careers and other roles and yet our life’s work is to deepen our relationship with self. Like you Beverley, I came to this awareness late in life and learned it is never too late to make changes and breathe in a loving quality into our bodies.

    1. As human beings our problem is not commitment, we just commit to everything outside of ourselves instead of nurturing the beautiful being we are first and bringing that out in full to life.

    2. Kehinde2012 I’m another person who has just come to a deeper understanding that my life’s work is to deepen my relationship with me, that all the self doubt, self worth issues are not from me but from a negative energy that I give preference to, rather than the energy that is from heaven, forever reminding me that I am so worthy of love.

  17. Re-discovering playfulness at any age is a blessing and reading your story inspiring. I work with elders, few emanate the joy you speak of.

  18. “I am still A WORK IN PROGRESS and will be for the rest of my life” – I love this. When so many are choosing to numb and distract themselves and withdraw from life, this is such an inspiring, delightful statement.

  19. It’s just gorgeous Beverley to hear your story of how you’re blossoming as you age and how much you’ve embraced yourself and life … it shows us all that no matter what we can always choose differently and to be love and learn to live that love is truly life changing.

  20. Anxiety and nervousness shadows so many of us today Beverley so it is great to get your confirmation that it is never too late to change our trajectory on what we think is our normal.

  21. Such a joy to read this blog Beverley, very inspiring and just goes to show, there is never an age to ‘give up’, and we do feel younger inside when we do not stop learning and growing. There is always a deeper level of love to express.

  22. No matter our age, it is the quality expressed from within that we bring to others that makes the difference and it is so true, the younger we feel can take years off how we look as we age… no need for botox or cosmetic surgery! 😉

  23. Beverley thank you for what you have written here, it really shows that it is never too late to start to make changes in our life, and to reconnect to the love that we are.

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